Looking back

So I haven't been here in quite a while and I know I need to make this a regular thing. My struggle is how much do I say while maintaining a balance of privacy and sharing what I want to share.

My other big struggle is do I blog about just me or include my family. Theme is a struggle. Do I use it as a online venting source or hone in on one specific running theme?

At any rate I will vow to be here more and figure it out!

Till next time.

"THEY" say you only get what you can handle...

So how many of you have heard "You're only given what you can handle!"?

Well this past 4 months (and counting) I've been to hell and back and there just doesn't seem to be any light at the end of this damn tunnel!
So a brief overview of the past four months that has led to today:

May 18th I got Strep throat, that turned into Facial Cellulitus which almost turned into Meningitis of the brain. What followed was 60 days of IV Therapy, oral antibiotics, pain killers, more Strep, more facial infection, sinus infection and on and on and on!
I went from hospital to DR to hospital to DR & DR & so on, over a dozen DR's in total.
I would go to work with the IV stint still in my hand. It was in for over 4 weeks so it was hard not to just make it a part of my wardrobe.

It's now September 26th and I am STILL sick and on antibiotics!
I have a Tonsillectomy scheduled for October 6th in hopes it will finally cure me!
By the time this is done it will be over FIVE months of day in and day out illness!

Now one might think that that in itself would be enough! BUT oh no, not my life!
Nope, while I struggled with being sick I still try to carry on some semblance of a normal life.
That means working; now FINDING a job, running a household, raising two boys; one with ADHD & the other in the midst of "The terrible two's" and then catching every curve ball thrown my way.

Curve ball #1
Lost my job August 27th
Yup, worked all day, came home, opened the mail and there was a bright and shiny envelope from my company announcing it was closing effective August 31st!
Talk about a shock!

I know know how Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and The City felt when she was dumped by Post It-Note! It SUCKS!!!!

Curve ball #2
Purchased a 2004 minivan off KIJIJI on August 29th as our car was dead and we needed a second vehicle so my husband could work the TWO jobs he's working to keep us afloat while still leaving me with something.

Well.... 3 weeks in and BANG!!!! Blew up! Yup, the $4000 van we ought blew up and is now a shiny $4000 lawn ornament! Needs a new engine worth approx. $6000 WTF???
And in case that's not enough for you here is most shocking one by far!

Curve ball #3
My son was best friends with a little girl all through Kindergarten last year and into first grade this year.
They adored each other and I adored her.
WELL her psycho mom decided that her daughter liked me too much and LONG story short got insanely, lunatic jealous and decided to remove her kid from my sons class, call me a all sorts of names, stopping short of pedophile! She threatened a restraining order if I so much as look at her kid!

All because I give her kid a pat on the head or a hug when she runs up to me, I let her sit with myself and my son during volunteer days and I call her princess!

I'm like a second mom to many of my older son's friends and he has friends moms who also treat them like one of their own.

She even had her older child stalk MY son and myself!!!! CRAZYYYYYY!!!!

Is what I did a crime? NO it's not and I followed the rule CYA and dealt with the police and school first & put a stop it all.

AND a "supposed" great friend of mine knew the whole time that this crazy B$&*H was after me and chose not to tell me because" she felt it was no big deal!"
Are you kidding me? Well I feel it's no big deal we are no longer friends then!

So there you have it! MY summer in a nut shell.I could buy stock in Kleenex they was I've cried these last 4 months!

Do I believe that saying "God (or whomever) only gives you what you can handle."
NO, I think that's a crock of shit! I'm not handling this well, my nerves are beyond frazzled, I'm obviously self imploding!
If I find the "THEY" who say this, "THEY" better run!

Special thanks to Mom Central

Well it took me a few weeks longer then I entended but I finally wrote the post I've had on my mind for ever. Thank you Mom Central for honoring the grant & believing in me. It was the push I needed to jumpstart my blog again!

How many posts in one day are too many? LOL

I won..... or not!

Hi Shauna,

I've just reviewed your entry to find that you did not include your blog URL, which was one of the qualifiers for the grant. I'm sorry to say your entry has therefore been disqualified this time around.

Sorry!
Natalie

So this was the email I just received from Mom Central. I'm so sad :(
I got an email on the 31st of August saying I had won a blogger grant for my idea for a post and I was over the moon!

I had just lost my job and the email saying I was selected really brought a bright spot to an otherwise agonizing week. I got a letter in the mail telling me my job was no longer! Who does that?!

Anyways I have appealed to Natalie at Mom Central and hope she'll understand it was an error.

At any note I do have a post to write, win or not and will later this week....
Stay tuned.

Also stay tuned as I bring you along on this roller coaster of a journey I am about embark on and hopefully I will find something that will allow me to continue to be home with Travis during the day, drop off and pick up Hayden from Grade 1 and still bring in $$$. Everyone's dream right?!

Becoming a Wee Welcome Blogger... I hope

I'm not a professional writer,I am not a child educator, I'm a mom, just like most of you, of two wonder boys and this is my journey to mold these sweet, OK sometimes sour, little boys into the wonderful young men I know they will one day become.



So like most things in my life right now I am leaving this blog post entry to the last minute as my 2 boys consume every waking, and sometimes sleeping, moments.

I have two boys, Hayden who will be 5 in February and the "baby" Travis who will 2 on December 12th. Yup 12/12!

I have survived the first year, even managed to get one to Kindergarten BUT now I am in the depths of the "Terrible Twos".

Hayden didn't fit the typical development pattern and skipped this faze. Hayden has ADHD and Sensory Processing Disorder so as we struggle to work through that I am also flying by the seat of my pants when it comes to Travis.

Travis is the Yin to Hayden's Yang. He was born sucking his thumb, relaxed and happy. In fact except for the colic I don't think I have seen a happier or more content child. That has all changed. I now have a little dictator who barks orders and screams at the top of his lungs, he will be seen AND heard!

He's bright and cute. I think that's part of the problem. He knows that his little dimples help him get away with murder and being the quiet one for so long he's ready to rule our house!

From clocking his brother on the head with the Wii remote to shouting NO defiantly when told to go to time out,Travis is a force to be reckoned with!

Did I mention I am an only child and have NO clue what it's like to have boys and siblings around. I cringe at the though of how much blood and tears will be shed by the end of this "stage".

They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger so here I go into battle with my little dictator Travis the Terrible!

I hope you're in for a wild and crazy ride!

A mom's struggle

My son has ADHD/Disruptive Behaviour Disorder with some sensory issues, he is now 4. I have had many a struggle and have carried him out of Walmart like a footbal at times, all the while he is kicking, biting and screaming.
I have cried, avoided places, hide at home and even gave up taking him out to certain places for over a year.
Our problem is two fold: one he was just diagnosed in Feb. even though I have known something was different since the day he was born.
Two a lot of people don't believe his diagnosis exsists and that it's just an excuse for bad behaviour and bad parenting. They not oly judge his behavior they judge me for the way I chose to treat it.
"oh he just needs a more stricts routine, consistency, no sugar, no food dyes, supplements etc."
I then have to defend what I have and haven't tried, why I am not using meds and therapy etc.
No one knows unless they live that life day in and day out.
I don't judge their decision to wear to tight pants or that they should really dye their hair so don't judge me.